I Found My Voice

4 of us, 130 of them, 4 days, 13 team captains, 42 huts, 11 parties, 2 sunrise-walks, 26 videos, 1 podcast, and innumerable conversations among a range of people who were all-in, and who continuously offered each other the space to be whoever they are, or want to be. We were there to coordinate a company get-together: A 4-day, offsite programme in the heart of the Ardennes, where people connected, listened, shared, laughed and played.

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Playing On The Swings

These people bring out the best in me. The work I do, the connections I make, and the relationships I enjoy, all bring me to life. This week I spent another two intense and beautiful days in their company. We spent the time examining our intuition, our gifts, and even our ‘super powers’. Perhaps most revealingly of all, we examined our relationship to the company and to each other. It was a time to let

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Listen, Don’t Listen

Another MWP event, another insight; this time brought about by the highlights of a 10-hour, sunshine day spent with almost 40 colleagues. I won’t go into the details of the day, but for those wishing to know more about MWP and what makes these experiences so special, there are seven other pieces going back almost five years listed at the end of this one. (Suffice it to say that the usual words apply: connection, joy,

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Connection & Celebration

I arrived with an intention to connect. There was a sense of celebration, too, because my first real psychedelic experience felt like it would be a reward for all the personal development work I have done over the years. When I left that same evening, what I took with me was an appreciation of opposites; overwhelming gratitude for the loving connection to my wife and son; and a sense of my effortless brilliance, coupled with

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Meeting Myself Anew

This yearly review might turn out to be the final entry of this entire blog. [Actually, not quite.] If so, then I will have concluded this decades-long personal development project in the most deeply satisfying way possible. Of course, it never ends, but there is a feeling that this latest breakthrough simultaneously offers some kind of conclusion to years of effort on multiple levels, as well as a definite feeling that my life is opening

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Eight Songs

It would take too long to go into the detail of the latest MWP excursion, so I choose to record the highlight – an unexpected but also somehow predictable denouement to a two-day, rain-soaked, beautiful weekend. At the end of the second night, with almost everyone else in their beds, eight people sat outside around a heavy wooden table. At the last minute there had been a couple of adjustments; one person left, whilst another

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We Score

I write this during a rest day between two full-day trainings. I’m sitting in my room in a luxury Hotel in the beautiful German countryside, deeply satisfied with how things have gone so far, reassured by the quality of my German, and appreciative of just where I am in my life. The title comes from Mind Work Production’s (MWP) focus for the year: We Score. My challenge to myself is not only to score, but

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Stillness & Gratitude

This yearly assessment reflects on a year-end retreat, connecting what happened there with the year itself. It has been a relatively quiet year, and yet there have been three major events which together have helped to underpin a more assured and peaceful existence – a feeling of being more comfortable in and with myself, with my life, and possibly with my world. The year’s main focus was the 3-month family trip around Europe in a

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50 Metres High & Grounded

It was unmissable. Not the event itself (although that is also true) but the water tower which stood solid and unmoving; the centrepiece of the landscape for another MWP* event. Its thick walls, built to hold the weight and pressure of the water it had originally stored, would now host the party at the end of the first day, as well as provide the opportunity – for those who dared – to climb the stairs,

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Absolutely Brilliant

What follows is a summary of the final flurry of phone calls I had with Karaj over the course of two weeks in mid-December last year. The background is provided by the challenges detailed in the first two posts of this 4-part series (Love, Relationship & Healing and The Paradoxical Parent), as well as my response to those challenges (in A Critical Point Is Reached). This piece also serves, rather neatly, as an end to our

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A Critical Point Is Reached

A torrent of thoughts appeared in response to the challenges described in the previous two posts. They led me to two powerful insights, a clash of scripts, and a fork in the road, which is where I currently stand. One branch leads down an all-too familiar road of separation after two decades of on-off collaboration and learning. The other branch opens into an unknown landscape which will undoubtedly extend our work together, bringing us perhaps

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The Paradoxical Parent

His second challenge came within a week of the first and hit me even harder. It felt almost vindictive, such was the chilling effect it had on me. I sat rooted to the spot, knowing that the next few minutes would be particularly confronting. There was a graveness to his challenge, and as he talked at length about what it meant for both me and my son, I felt as though I had been found

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Love, Relationship & Healing

These next four posts tie up a few loose ends from last year, and set the tone for this one. They examine Karaj’s last two challenges to me, the effect they had on me, and the insightful and potentially script-changing consequences which arose from them. They were forceful, uncompromising challenges, as usual; but somehow different, with greater definition and urgency, as if there were no time to waste. The first challenge came in November when

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There’s Beauty In The Detail

In this review of 2020 it becomes clear that not only is there beauty in the detail, there is also release. The more we explore and examine what arises – and what often unconsciously drives our behaviour – the easier it is released. The year began in that vein, with two posts which sought to highlight the importance of making the most of whatever life – and the body – have to offer. It ended

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