06.45 E&M. During my walk to the house I reflected on the time a few weeks ago when I was getting a bollocking or two from Karaj and I felt that things were just getting too much for me. The reprimands and warnings I received at that time served to shake me out of my self-pity. The changes which have occurred since then have been dramatic but also gradual, and involve self-parenting. I have begun to look after myself and be aware of myself more, my discipline has come back into focus and I am recognising many of the triggers which cause me so many problems. Self-parenting is not just helping me to learn and grow, it is helping me to grow up.