On the way to the house I pondered my subdued mood. For the short time with Kuldip yesterday I had felt good and of some use. But today I have returned to my mood of the last few days – I feel that I lack direction.
Having arrived at the house and finally completed my appraisal from the last three days I felt much better about myself. Yesterday I had lacked the motivation to complete the work but today it has been no problem at all. Unfortunately, it wasn’t long before my despondent feelings returned. It seems that when I am focused and my attention is drawn away from all the random thoughts running through my head, I am okay; but as soon as I have nothing else to concentrate on, my mind takes over.