I called Dev to confront him after yesterday’s call. He was low and scared (of being thrown out of the group). Confronted him on his addiction to pain/pleasure cycles and how he was prepared to dump his fax on us rather than relate to us. How work on the reflection had seemed like nothing more than revision for some sort of exam he hoped to pass, rather than see that by relating to us he would be all right. Challenged him on how he contributes to me when he relates, and then he disappears. Got into offering solutions and so passed the phone on.
Summary: still have the clarity of the last few days but feeling very tired today. Drifted out of activities, but pulled myself together and got back involved. With the ongoing issue of Dev I am seeing more clearly what I do with my own emotions.