It’s All Bollocks

Awake. Tired and run down. Headache. Supervision with Karaj. I just need to keep going (for another couple of years). Karaj and I went for a long lunch. We talked about where we are. It’s good that we are constantly attacked (see The Way of Transformation). Either we will win or we will lose, and if we lose it means closing the place down, which means we win anyway.

In the evening I updated the most recent fines for Priya, Simran, Michelle, Dev and Kuldip, before joining Karaj, George and Ishwar in their supervision session. It’s all bollocks. No matter how well I think I’m doing, life continues in its process and is waiting to trip me up if I let it. It is all bollocks, but I might as well do something. Karaj: ‘You need passion.’

It’s funny when I look at how well I was doing up until this week and where I am now, powerless to do anything but carry on – with no motivavtion – and do the things I know I need to do. George and Ishwar reviewd their INSET project and we looked at the pending work.

Summary: No energy, no motivation. Achieved the bare minimum.

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