I talked to Karaj about last night’s phone call with Robert. I had thought it is my job to support people and to allow them to talk, and to verbalise my thoughts and feelings. In addition I had taken it upon myself to try and be like Karaj. This is where I go wrong. In trying to be someone else I am not being true to myself. I am highly competent and have a multitude of skills but it is only when I’m me that those skills and competence show through.
Karaj added that I do not work hard enough, and that when I come close to working as hard as Dev or Priya or Ishwar, only then will I get anywhere. As with any such comment, I took it to heart and resolved to be more serious about my work and not to fuck around so much or be so lazy.