Remembering What I Want
October 16, 2002
Karaj challenged me about why a particular item was not on the to-do list. I felt like a scolded child and talked later of how I am hanging on, with
Karaj challenged me about why a particular item was not on the to-do list. I felt like a scolded child and talked later of how I am hanging on, with
Karaj was on at me this morning to sort out my procedures and have systems in place to cope with the workload. Starting to see that I have things the
Felt shit during my exercises this morning. The thought of another day like the last week or two does nothing to inspire or motivate me. Just keep busy. Procedures. Ishwar
Challenge from Karaj. He told me I had forgotten the bags from the car and then added, as he always does, ‘You need to wake up‘. I cut him short.
Overslept again. Karaj woke me up at 07:30 but I fell asleep again. Every spare minute I have I want to lie down. No energy to exercise. Sort this out.
I woke up questioning my own commitment and support in not meeting up with Simran last night. In doing this I am looking to make myself wrong. So, make myself
I woke up at 07:30 and Karaj was already working. I offered my assistance and Karaj made an important point: ‘Get on with your exercises and I’ll see you at
It’s getting harder each day to get up. I’m very tired and every flat surface looks like a bed in this state, but I know I cannot really rest. [Karaj:
Discussed with Dev his overall picture of his week ahead. He went off on his own twice; once at the beginning of the exercise and once when typing up the
Karaj and I chatted about me creating my own space away from him over the next 4-5 years. This means I am fully in charge and can create my own