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Default Setting: Everyone Is Okay
I welcomed Simran, made tea for him and Karaj, and the three of us sat together. Karaj dictated a long...
My Mind At Work
I was tempted, out of loyalty to Karaj, not to publish this post because it accuses him of manipulation and...
My True Self
I am still moving quickly between leaving and staying. Focusing on my body helps me to forget, but the feelings...
I Question Everything
Woke up and immediately felt shit at being where I am. Got ready and got out. At my counselling appointment...
Anger Where There Could Be Love
I read the letter written for me by Leon, George and Calvin. They are angry with me for not being...
Decide What I Want & Follow It
My first thoughts on waking were what a waste of my time and energy clubbing is; and I am not...
Realisations Among Friends
Yesterday Aubrey and I headed up to Manchester for Sonny’s belated stag weekend. Aubrey was lovely company. I talked to...
Deciding In Every Instant
Karaj talked to Ishwar about me as if I weren’t there. The implication was that I am not going to...
Negativity & Being Yourself
Karaj, Shona, Ishwar and I met to plan the day. We talked about being yourself – especially in other cultures...
It Could Be A Lot Worse
During my counselling appointment this morning, I talked about how I am trying to be with my body, the pain...
I Need To Win
After breakfast, I looked at my Vivekananda books: ‘We are responsible for who we are, because we have the power...
Lifting The Heaviness
I woke up at some stage in the night disappointed that I am not moving back to Germany. I have...