Completion & Prediction
May 9, 2002
One lesson from this week has been how I have finished jobs. I have always had a tendency to move on to other things when I begin to reach the
One lesson from this week has been how I have finished jobs. I have always had a tendency to move on to other things when I begin to reach the
Yesterday evening we talked about transcending the negatives and positives. Rather than aim for equilibrium, from where I can be pushed and pulled towards the polarities of negative and positive,
07.30 45 mins. I went to bed last night feeling anxious that I had not done enough with my day and that I continue to let Karaj down. The anxiety
The past year saw a continuation of the guidance Karaj has given me throughout my time at the house. I have listened to what he has told me and, as
This day started with pre-appraisal questions. 35 of them. Below are a few examples. The effects were the same as on Monday: I felt anxiety about my answers, yet the
07.30 40 mins. Initial negativity due to tiredness and stiffness but started work with an urgency not normally shown by me. It served to wake me up and focus myself.
07.25 40 mins. I arrived at the house feeling somewhat emotional but as soon as I spoke to Karaj about the work to be done I began to become focused.
07.20 E&M 50 mins. Yesterday I worked with Karaj laying slabs in the far corner of the sunken garden. The weather was gorgeous and as I stood in the garden
07.25 E&M 40 mins. The subdued feeling is still there. I feel in limbo. It’s as if I want to make the most of the opportunity to feel down (old
Overslept. At the house Karaj told me that this is to do with my emotional reaction to yesterday’s events. I felt doubly rebuffed because I had initially exaggerated my point