Balance Means Balance
November 23, 2001
I felt fine when I woke up but by the time I arrived at the house I felt a little demotivated so I got moving. I updated my mood chart,
I felt fine when I woke up but by the time I arrived at the house I felt a little demotivated so I got moving. I updated my mood chart,
My mood is subdued and I have the feeling that things have become very serious and hard work here in the house. This formed the basis of my conversation with
Still feel very tired but I am looking forward to a quiet week during which I can get myself together. I had a chat with Karaj, and he gave me
6.15 E&M 60 mins. Overslept. Karaj and I had a meeting about what we need to be doing this week. At the beginning I felt some familiar feelings of having
06.00 E&M 90 mins. I felt stiff from yesterday’s work in the garden and thought I might struggle with the exercises but they went very well. Talked to Karaj about
06.50 E&M 30 mins – a short programme. Physically, I feel a little stiff and slightly achy in my joints. Went to the launderette and then for a walk in
06.00 E&M. It didn’t take much for me to get up this morning and even with a stiff back from yesterday’s exertions I enjoyed the exercises. It was as if
I still feel subdued, I still feel inadequate, I still feel pissed off with my life, and I still feel the futility of everything. I feel as if I’m going
Went to Sunil’s for the day and had a wonderful time in his company. I felt relaxed as I had done when we met up for the Wales trip. He
Monday morning and I feel good. It’s almost as if I am buzzing excitedly inside but I still remain calm and balanced. I feel dynamic yet I am moving slowly,