Expecting Blame & Seeking Drama
May 10, 2001
08.30 E&M 70 mins. Excellent discipline after last night. When I first woke up I asked Karaj if I could use the phone to phone dad and find out the
08.30 E&M 70 mins. Excellent discipline after last night. When I first woke up I asked Karaj if I could use the phone to phone dad and find out the
Yesterday I woke up with a very stiff and painful back from sitting on the floor playing cards the night before. I am very worried. This is how it all
Arose at 6am and decided to treat myself to a cab. Arrived at the airport in good time. The travelling went smoothly, a delay here, a delay there, I took
I took a cab from the station to Alex’s house. He has a lovely place. It’s quiet, out of the way and is the best place I think he’s ever
Walked to work this morning and felt like I needed a change. I recognised this feeling as a need for excitement and realised immediately that it was not good for
Yesterday we worked until 9pm putting up the safety wall in the garden. It took us about three hours in total. After about 20 minutes I was demoralised and frustrated.
I notice that, in recent situations with people, I am much more aware of myself than usual and, equally, I perform much better amongst people. I am consistently more relaxed
The worst day so far. I had two glasses of water this morning thinking it might help to clear my system. It did. A few hours later I threw up.
Blind spots. These are gaps in a person’s awareness which make them oblivious to their actions. During a visit to buy some nuts and bolts with Karaj I witnessed such
Today Karaj, Kuldip and I drove to Edingburgh. Karaj asked me to navigate and I immediately felt the onset of a familiar reaction: I doubt my ability to do a job (perfectly) and get