I Have The Choice
April 24, 2002
I woke up feeling tired, angry and negative. In the supervision session with Karaj and Robert, I was unable to get control of my emotions. The theme for the day
I woke up feeling tired, angry and negative. In the supervision session with Karaj and Robert, I was unable to get control of my emotions. The theme for the day
Yesterday evening we talked about transcending the negatives and positives. Rather than aim for equilibrium, from where I can be pushed and pulled towards the polarities of negative and positive,
The past year saw a continuation of the guidance Karaj has given me throughout my time at the house. I have listened to what he has told me and, as
07.30 50 mins. Felt stiff and tired this morning and my negativity tried to tell me that it would be hard to continue where I left off yesterday. This is
07.30 40 mins. Initial negativity due to tiredness and stiffness but started work with an urgency not normally shown by me. It served to wake me up and focus myself.
07.25 40 mins. I arrived at the house feeling somewhat emotional but as soon as I spoke to Karaj about the work to be done I began to become focused.
Overslept. At the house Karaj told me that this is to do with my emotional reaction to yesterday’s events. I felt doubly rebuffed because I had initially exaggerated my point
07.00 E&M 35 mins. Travelled to the house feeling good but annoyed at the prospect of spending the afternoon with Robert. It is always the initial contact which causes such
07.30 E&M 40 mins. Spent the morning checking and updating my self-appraisal. For some reason, I am still dissatisfied with the summary of my Germany trip, but the writings since
06.40 E&M 55 mins. At first, my negativity took hold, induced as it was by the stiffness of my back and the looseness of my spine and pelvis – there