Discounting My Awareness
May 31, 2002
I arrived in Germany yesterday feeling more composed and less excited by the trip than I have usually felt in the past. A good sign. Conversation flowed as usual and
I arrived in Germany yesterday feeling more composed and less excited by the trip than I have usually felt in the past. A good sign. Conversation flowed as usual and
Yesterday, in the men’s group, the five youngers (Ishwar, Dev, Calvin, Sunil and I) came together to sort ourselves out. Karaj used Leon’s issue to highlight to us that we
This week has been a relatively quiet one, but not without its challenges. They did not affect me as much as in the past because, as I have been able
The past year saw a continuation of the guidance Karaj has given me throughout my time at the house. I have listened to what he has told me and, as
07.20 40 mins. Once again I felt foggy in the morning and took time to get started. I soon began hurrying about trying to do things myself even though I
This day started with pre-appraisal questions. 35 of them. Below are a few examples. The effects were the same as on Monday: I felt anxiety about my answers, yet the
07.25 40 mins. I arrived at the house feeling somewhat emotional but as soon as I spoke to Karaj about the work to be done I began to become focused.
07.30 E&M 40 mins. Left home with a headache and feeling a little under the weather, but determined to keep on top of my resentment and withdrawal by staying in
I verbalised my feeling in the first break about the nasty taste in my mouth left by Robert’s comment to me that he is ‘very well’, which did not feel
I slept through the alarm and didn’t wake until 07.40 – hence no exercises. Sunil arrived for the day and there was a different atmosphere to the one with just