The Paradox of Annihilation
June 11, 2003
Karaj and I discussed my questions from last night: What role does Karaj play? (facilitator); and why do most people not sort themselves out? (They actually don’t want to.) It’s
Karaj and I discussed my questions from last night: What role does Karaj play? (facilitator); and why do most people not sort themselves out? (They actually don’t want to.) It’s
In the first supervision, we talked about the garden work from yesterday, which happened the way it did because the mind was not focused. People were in Child ego state
The common thread of this 3-day weekend was Ishwar’s letter to his dying father. We began early, in the first supervision. Ishwar needs to say goodbye but he was not
For two days I sulked and moaned to myself. I allowed my emotions to dominate me. They impinged on my enjoyment of what was supposed to be a short break
The highlight of last night’s group (WSG) was a diagram showing what happens when we don’t have a strong Parent ego state (TA). In the absence of a parental response,
Simran arrived at 09:00. Both of us are in the same space: tired and hanging on. We talked, almost secretively and with a resigned ‘What’s the point?‘, of our dissatisfaction,
Karaj challenged me about why a particular item was not on the to-do list. I felt like a scolded child and talked later of how I am hanging on, with
I began feeling emotional about the prospect of Karaj being unhappy with the work I have done this week. Started to go low as I contemplated my guilt at not
I overslept after a dream in which I shouted at my father for being negative and also wanted to have a go in a cousin’s wheelchair. I woke up remembering
Friday I felt stiff & tired during my exercises. Is the numbness spreading down my calves? It’s difficult to tell whether things are getting worse or better. Simran arrived in